6/8/2020: New Beginnings.

Hi, this blog is for my quarantine thoughts in case you haven't realize yet.

It's been a really long time since I wrote something, specifically in this platform, so pardon my lack of comprehension and ability to express properly what I'm trying to say in advance.

I'm trying soooo damn hard to remember how the hecky did my younger self managed to write all that stuff that I have in my older blog.

I even had the nerve to google how to write for blogs 101.

But after spending an hour and a half looking at many posts and other blogs about how to blog, I eventually gave up and decided that the only way I was going to actually write this blog was my own way.

While writing this I realized that one of the things I used to do was to write a blog according to my mood and what type of emotions I felt at the moment. The more overwhelmed, the larger the content. Doing this sometimes caused me to write a lot of nonsense or circle around the same idea (which is something I'm doing rn apparently).

So..

The objectives of creating this blog were:

1) Be a little bit more productive / Stop procrastinating so much.

Yeah, this one doesn't need much explanation.

2) Have a writing habit again. And use it for a different purpose than before.

When I first started with the blogging and the writing, my physical, emotional and psychological situation wasn't the best, or at least not the best for me. And although sometimes I think about how different my blogs would have been if I hadn't been so sad and depressed during that period of my life, I also think that writing saved my life. So, as tough and difficult things were back then, I wouldn't change it, those thoughts, issues and experiences are what shaped me as a person, a person that deserves a second chance in life and is happy and proud to finally say it out loud full of confidence.

Also, the initial purpose of my first blog was to leave a diary full of letters and depressive thoughts that would be published later on my social media so people would read it after I passed away (yep not original but still bizarre) being the last entry, my goodbye letter which I wrote in Spanish, since it's my birth language. If you read the last entry on the Denial Blog, and noticed the date, you can see I planned on dying a year ago, which clearly didn't happen, and I'm grateful it didn't.
So, after my terrible Hanna Baker atempt, some things happened (I won't get much into that srry), I stopped writing like I used to and now I'm here again, but different than before, way better than before.

3) Learn to share and express my feelings / Heal.

You'll see that one throughout the whole series of blogs so.. wait for it hehe.